...

Waves of change sweep over me

disturbing the delicate balance

erected over years of false

security

held together by

tradition

heritage

expectation.

Those strong

stalwart words

that blow so

easily away

at the slightest

crack.

Revealing

betrayal

secrets

testing

carelessness.

What I thought

was

is

not.

I

cannot begin

to adjust my

sails.

I am breathless,

the wind

knocked

clean out

of my heart

and I gasp.

Hollow

chest

slowly

fills again

with

holy

Breath.

Peace

in the crest of the swell.

I still fear where

the wave will

land, but I ride

it knowing

I will

not

drown.

I

worship

because

It is all I know

for sure.

I will

live in the pain -

experience

it fully

knowing

there

is

Promise

in it.

There

is

nothing

I

can control.

But

I know

that

knowledge

is the beginning

of true Peace.

The fullness

of Life

comes when we

feel dead.