I am always amazed whenever we have a big windstorm. The neighbors across the street have huge pine trees in their backyard, and I love to watch the trees sway and bend in the wind. It seems as though they will most certainly snap, but every time (so far) they give sway one way, and then back to the other, and eventually, as the wind dies down, they stand straight again.
Those trees are flexible. And strongly rooted. And for years they have withstood myriad storms.
Flexibility in the human realm is a great quality.
A quality I think perhaps I needed to develop. So I've had some opportunities this past little bit to grow in my ability to be flexible.
Tejan will be with us for at least ten more weeks.
And while I have adjusted to this over the course of the last few days, it took a little time to readjust my heart and my expectations and find the energy to face this new reality.
There were moments when I felt I might snap. Like maybe it was just one inch too far that I was being pushed... but then, in a moment of grace, the pressure to bend let up and I was able to find my way back to center.
The only explanation I have for this ability to bend so far - are the Roots that go so deep beneath the surface of my circumstances. This deep seeded belief in Pure Religion packaged inside the gift of faith.
And then, wonder of wonders, I am blessed beyond belief by Joy. Joy in the extra moments I get to spend with this extraordinary boy. Joy in watching my own children stretch and mature beyond their years. Joy in tangible forms like laughter and goofiness and happy memories.
So not only am I shored up and hedged in and held upright by God Almighty, I also can look at my circumstances and see great blessing.
It is an extraordinary experience to recognize that I am way beyond my own abilities. To know that my own reserves were exhausted months ago. And to find that I am able to keep going - because there is a Strength and a Perfect Love that flows through me.
For at least ten more weeks...