Sunday, February 24, 2008

Limbo.

So I haven't had lots to say lately, it seems.

I'm thinking up a storm, but don't seem to be able to push the thoughts through my body to my fingers.

Tejan is in Seattle for a couple of weeks. It was time for a break. We had some behavioral issues that are better dealt with by his Daddy Chris (the founder of COTN). So they flew him over on Friday. And I breathed a heavy sigh of relief. I think the last few weeks took more of a toll on me than I knew. Because now that he's gone (sort of) I find myself struggling to find my center.

So much of my energy has been tied up in this little boy.

And then there was the build up to the big goodbye that wasn't... and I had to dive back into caregiver mode so fast and furious... and, well, it was just time for a little break.

Asia is gone this weekend - until next Thursday - so that leaves me lots of quiet time. And I'm starting to drive myself a little batty - thinking through it all. I almost feel as though I can't quite get settled down. Like I can't rest.

So I'm struggling a bit. And feeling a little lonely.

Isolated.

I get to go to Alberta next weekend to spend some time with Corey. That will be good. She gets me. And she's been through her own grieving and upheaval this past year - so maybe we can just be tired together. Whatever it ends up being, it will be good. She's that kind of friend.

So that's that.

May or may not post much in the next little bit.

We'll see.

7 comments:

  1. can I be tired in abstenia? a break is sometimes the only think that keeps us from the brink, a time to unwind, unload, and unburden.
    a break is good.
    I'm sorry you feel isolated or lonely. Sending lots of hugs and empathy.

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  2. Whew, Cathy. You've had a lot. I feel for you, and I hate to be so very far away. I'd like to be a help, somehow.

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  3. Praying for rest for you. It's so easy to say, "just cast it on Him". Harder to actually do when you're in the midst of it.

    Try to meditate on the word if you can, it will refresh you. :) I'm praying for you. So glad you get to hang out with your friend next weekend. That is a gift.:)

    "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls."
    Matthew 11:28 (amp)

    "My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him."
    -Ps 62:1



    M~
    Pink Paper Peppermints

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  4. Blessings and peace and grace to you, sister. How refreshing it will be for you to spend some time with a kindred spirit. Such a good reminder that God never intended for us to do life alone.

    Another verse of encouragement:
    The eternal God is your dwelling place, and underneath are the everlasting arms. (Deut. 33:27)

    and a quote:
    What child of God was ever permitted to fall lower than God's "underneath"? Rev. Henry Gill

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  5. ...alberta, canada? or is there an alberta in the states?

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  6. Yes, Canada, silly Nadine!

    My best childhood friend owns a bed and breakfast in Canmore and I'm going to visit her!

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