So I haven't had lots to say lately, it seems.
I'm thinking up a storm, but don't seem to be able to push the thoughts through my body to my fingers.
Tejan is in Seattle for a couple of weeks. It was time for a break. We had some behavioral issues that are better dealt with by his Daddy Chris (the founder of COTN). So they flew him over on Friday. And I breathed a heavy sigh of relief. I think the last few weeks took more of a toll on me than I knew. Because now that he's gone (sort of) I find myself struggling to find my center.
So much of my energy has been tied up in this little boy.
And then there was the build up to the big goodbye that wasn't... and I had to dive back into caregiver mode so fast and furious... and, well, it was just time for a little break.
Asia is gone this weekend - until next Thursday - so that leaves me lots of quiet time. And I'm starting to drive myself a little batty - thinking through it all. I almost feel as though I can't quite get settled down. Like I can't rest.
So I'm struggling a bit. And feeling a little lonely.
I get to go to Alberta next weekend to spend some time with Corey. That will be good. She gets me. And she's been through her own grieving and upheaval this past year - so maybe we can just be tired together. Whatever it ends up being, it will be good. She's that kind of friend.
So that's that.
May or may not post much in the next little bit.