But today, I thought it would be better to thank you all for your prayers and words of wisdom and encouragement. It's amazing that a blog can be such a great tool for keeping you all in touch and hearing back from people all over the world - hearing your hearts through comments. I'm humbled and blown away by it. So thank you.
I have been blessed with a quiet acceptance of these circumstances... yesterday, even though I was on the go non-stop (which is NOT the sort of day that normally feeds my soul) I felt a quiet peace through it all. Even while frustrated by doctors who only seem to show up when I leave the hospital, and overwhelmed by the disagreeing factions of people who control Tejan's fate, I felt the Peace that passes all understanding. How fortunate I am to have a merciful God who feeds my soul when my circumstances do not.
So I managed to get through my day yesterday:
- At the hospital by 6:30 am, hoping to catch the doctors on rounds.
- I left the hospital at 9:30 having never seen a doctor the whole time. I ran home to shower and prepare for a class at the store. I couldn't cancel it, because it was already reschduled because of last week's snow.
- While home, I returned phone calls from three people wanting to either visit Tejan and needing details, or wanting to bring us meals. Making three phone calls is hard on a good day. But I did it. (good girl.)
- Loaded the dishwasher. Started some laundry. Smooched the dog.
- Taught my class at noon.
- Ran to the grocery store and the school to touch base with the school office about T's condition.
- Picked the kids up from school. We went straight to the hospital. Kyler and Savannah did their homework in the rec room while Ethan and T. played video games. Refereed fights about what games to play. Hoped to see the doctors again. I did not.
- Saw Asia for about 5 minutes when he came to the hospital to take the kids so I could go straight to my evening class.
- Taught my evening class. Closed the store.
- Back to the hospital to read to T. and tuck him in for the night.
- Home at 9:00. Dinner. Bed.
And today will be similar. Another class to teach. Tomorrow should be a little less frantic, as my whole day is free and I can just be at the hospital instead of going up and down the hill so many times.
So yes - it's nuts around here.
And yes - I'm exhausted.
And yes - we're all a little overwhelmed by the demands on our family right now.
But we're okay, because God is good. And He is strong in my weakness.
He is strong in my weakness.
Isn't that amazing?
Smooch you all.