No picture today to share, but instead, I have a prayer I found recently in an old journal.
I was cleaning out my nightstand and found a few old books where I've written my thoughts... I've been journaling in some form or another since about sixth grade... so I've got them tucked away all over the house. I saw this particular spiral bound one and casually opened it to see when it was from... in the back it had funny things the kids had said scribbled down, and entries from 2004...
As I paged through, I came to this prayer:
January 28th, 2004
"Awaken us, Lord.
Pull us toward you in ways we never imagined - ways we can only describe as from You.
Bring people to us in sovereignly orchestrated ways to declare your goodness and your love so that lives are changed.
Take us together to a place of complete reliance on You.
Give us high expectations, lofty visions, great dreams.
Use us however you choose."
I had tears in my eyes as I read this list... this list of exactly the things God has done for this family over the course of the last six months...
It's so specific.
And has been answered in a way I truly never could have imagined when I wrote it. (I even asked for that!)
It gives me great hope to know that God knows my future. And that he hears my prayers.
It makes me want to pray more - for big things - and then wait to see what He brings to us as answers.
But it's also just a teeny bit scary... because I feel like if I pray for great things, God is going to answer - and in my worrisome ways I fear that I might not be able to handle the answer...
So I have to trust. And look at His track record of never giving me more than I can handle...
And then take a deep breath and pray.
Because God hears.
And he answers.