I've got to be honest.
I'm going to whine today.
This last little stretch we've had with Tejan has pretty much knocked the wind out of my sails.
And I'm tired.
I don't know if I'm overly sensitive because I'm so tired, but I feel as though everything becomes an argument with him lately. And the fighting between him and Ethan is at an all time high.
I also think that my heart was pretty much disengaged at the point when we were ready for the big goodbye at the end of January. And then having him stay, I may have just held onto that - not wanting to re-engage and go through the hurt of preparing to say goodbye again. So I'm running on empty, pretty much.
I really don't want to finish this way.
I don't want to be counting down the days.
But I find myself doing it.
He's here until April 20th.
And I need to get through these last few weeks without feeling like a crazy person.
But I feel a little bit like a crazy person.
Is it wrong to just want my life back?
It sounds so pickin' selfish.
I'd love your prayers.
They've held me up before...
And I need to be held up now.