And he really wants me to go to Africa soon. He's the one who hears my heart best, and he seems to understand my need to go and see.
There's a huge part of me that is:
- first of all - terrified at this prospect.
- secondly - worried the kids would be upset, since we've always talked about going as a family
- lastly - TERRIFIED.
But I can't really imagine waiting a whole year.
Can you imagine not seeing one of your children for over a year?
Perhaps going (on a COTN sponsered 'Vision Trip') will help give my brokenness some focus. A direction. A clearer understanding of what God is trying to do with my heart.
So I'm praying. And filling out an application. And praying. And trembling a little bit.
Can you imagine?