Yesterday was the first Sunday of Advent. I feel my faith very deeply. I always have. I have a personal relationship with the baby Jesus and I love Him intensely. But yesterday I found myself angsty and upset and lost. I am in a wilderness of sorts lately with my relationship with church. And even with Christianity, I guess. Because what most people think of as 'Christian' in our current society, I don't want to be identified with. Right-wing. Kim Davis approving. Refugee fearing. Planned Parenthood attacking. Hypocritical. Bible thumping. Hateful. Closed-minded. Self assured and sanctimonious. And church... well that's another thing. I wouldn't call my past church any of those things. But I find myself lost at church as well... feeling so 'over' the politics and the effort of the modern church to try to stay relevant in today's culture. I feel like so many progressive churches are trying so hard to be cool and edgy that I don't