I have to start with a big thank you to my commenters from yesterday. I was feeling pretty alone in the world and it always helps to know there are other people out there who have felt the same confusion and loneliness.
Sometimes I feel like the blessing of a "best friend" throughout my whole childhood has in some ways stunted my ability to make friends as an adult. Or maybe, as Corey commented yesterday, it may just be this season of life - where my relationships with my kids are so much more emotionally intense - that causes me to feel unable to extend energy toward other friendships.
What I really wish for, is a street with lovely white houses that all have front porches, and where all my friends could live. All my bloggy friends, and all my real friends.
Wanna come?
I think part of it is that there was a certain intensity with the friends I had when I was having my babies. We were all entering this motherhood thing together, and a bit overwhelmed, and a lot desperate for adult interaction. We clung to each other like stink on a skunk. We needed each other. We got each other. We were fast and furious friends, who laughed together and changed each other's babies diapers and sat around the kiddie pool in the summer and the playland at McDonalds in the winter.
Now, everyone is running different directions. Some kids play soccer, some play baseball. Some go to public school, some go to private, some are homeschooled. I go to one church. My friends go to different churches. The kids that used to share Hotwheels and Rescue Heroes now have homework and chores.
I'm not really going anywhere with this, just thinking out loud.
I need friends. I'll acknowledge that much.
I have no idea really what a true soul mate sort of friendship could look like for me right now.
I have an ideal friendship in my head, but that wonder-woman is strangely absent from my life.
I do love my husband - and he is my best friend, but I think we all know what I mean when I say he's no girlfriend.
Ah, fiddlesticks.
I'll just keep plugging along, and seeking God in this area of my life...
And we'll see.
Love you all for visiting and talking back.
Sometimes I feel like the blessing of a "best friend" throughout my whole childhood has in some ways stunted my ability to make friends as an adult. Or maybe, as Corey commented yesterday, it may just be this season of life - where my relationships with my kids are so much more emotionally intense - that causes me to feel unable to extend energy toward other friendships.
What I really wish for, is a street with lovely white houses that all have front porches, and where all my friends could live. All my bloggy friends, and all my real friends.
Wanna come?
I think part of it is that there was a certain intensity with the friends I had when I was having my babies. We were all entering this motherhood thing together, and a bit overwhelmed, and a lot desperate for adult interaction. We clung to each other like stink on a skunk. We needed each other. We got each other. We were fast and furious friends, who laughed together and changed each other's babies diapers and sat around the kiddie pool in the summer and the playland at McDonalds in the winter.
Now, everyone is running different directions. Some kids play soccer, some play baseball. Some go to public school, some go to private, some are homeschooled. I go to one church. My friends go to different churches. The kids that used to share Hotwheels and Rescue Heroes now have homework and chores.
I'm not really going anywhere with this, just thinking out loud.
I need friends. I'll acknowledge that much.
I have no idea really what a true soul mate sort of friendship could look like for me right now.
I have an ideal friendship in my head, but that wonder-woman is strangely absent from my life.
I do love my husband - and he is my best friend, but I think we all know what I mean when I say he's no girlfriend.
Ah, fiddlesticks.
I'll just keep plugging along, and seeking God in this area of my life...
And we'll see.
Love you all for visiting and talking back.
Its ok to ramble some days....I LOVE your banner!
ReplyDeleteI kid you not, I had a short devotional on this very topic a few days ago. When I have more time today (naptime), I'll type it out and send it on. It's just a little nudge from God.
ReplyDeleteSmile, it's Friday :)
Hey girlie!! You are sounding down. Im sorry that you are feeling this way. I hope you treasure our friendship?! I'm so there for you...I hope you know that!!!? I wish we lived closer because I so would be your everyday contact friend that you probably would want to take that comment back!!! :) LOVE you much and please let's get together and have a weekend!!
ReplyDeleteHey, sometimes God leaves us feeling alone in the world so we reach out to Him more, you know?
ReplyDeleteI too crave that... we have compartmentalized ourselves so much, that "neighbors" are no longer friends... we don't sit on the front porch talking and snapping peas anymore... heck we'd rather buy them at walmart frozen and watch TV. I miss that. I miss the "porch people" as my hubby and I call them. I wish I had a friend here I could just call and say, hey lets go see a movie! But everyone has these wild schedules... why why WHY are kid's schedules so busy? When do they have time to be a kid? Why are we driving them all over... a friend of mine's kids are in so many activities she has the schedule scheduled down to 10 minute intervals... its bad... one child in 5 activities? Come on! What are we teaching them? Activity is more important than free time where you can sing with the wind, wander a bit in your mind, make a friend... explore your back yard?
If your ever in Dayton... your welcome to explore mine... heck, Coffee is on me!
Hi--I found your blog through the Taste Everything Once forums. I am moving to the South Hill next month. I am a Christian single mom who will be looking for a church and also who enjoys stamping cards. The way I see it, we already are friends! See you at your shop next month!
ReplyDeleteI consider you my friend... my true, blue, always there, would do anything for me friend. And even though I'm in the blogger friend category, I know that I am blessed by knowing you through the written word. Cathy, you get me. And that is a gift. And so even though I don't live in your town, and even though we've never met face to face, I thank you for the friendship. And I love you for your kindness and wisdom and intuition. Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart for being MY ideal friend!
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