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Ahhhhh...

Quiet house.

Asia went into work late so we could walk the kids to school this morning... all three got the teachers they were hoping for. (All three got the teachers we were hoping for, which is more important...)

Gracie and I are reveling in the quiet.

I have SO many things I want to do today. And I have until 3:00 to get them done.

Can you even imagine?

I've already found myself looking at the clock, since last year I only had until 11:30 before I had to go get E. Now I've got until 3:00. It'll be 3:15 most days, when they'll walk home together. Today I want to go meet them so I can hear about their days on the walk home.

E. was a little nervous last night at bedtime. Being at school all day - eating lunch there - making new friends. First grade is always the hardest transition, I think. It is for me, at least. It's hard to have this little one who's been by your side their whole life go off for 6 hours alone. I'll miss my little buddy.

Really, it's been 11 1/2 years that I've had a buddy or two by my side.

And now it's just me.

I really don't know exactly what my life is going to look like now.

I've got to get a couple of weeks into it, I think.

Such a strange feeling - this alone time.

But it's good.

It's time for me to rejuvenate after being a caretaker for so long.
Time to read and learn and stretch my wings.
Time to work on things that will make me a better Mommy and a better wife and a better me. Time to pray.
Time to be quiet - and listen to God.
Time to catch up on projects.
Time to organize.
Time to be available to others in a way I've not been able to.

Time.

I've got lots of time now.

Now that the kids are in school...


Comments

  1. Susie12:59 PM

    I didn't know they let parent paparazzi into the school! Oh this means so much to mean!

    Hope you're getting some time to play while the kids are away :>)

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  2. Katy1:35 PM

    I agree, first grade is tough.
    I miss my buddy too. He is very quiet, but I miss his presence here with me with occasional hugs thrown in.

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  3. Mindy Buller7:49 PM

    I knew before I even got to your page that your blog title was going to be Ahhhhhh. I'm not even kidding!! :-)

    All I can say is....Lucky!! (said in Napolean Dynomite voice) There are days when I question the wisdom of home schooling!! Today is one of them. :-) Enjoy a little extra peace and quiet for me!

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  4. Kelly5:38 AM

    I am another slightly envious homeschhol mom. My days are full of Children!
    You have a wonderful, luxurious day...

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